Chapter 143: I made a mistake… I thought I liked Noah…
Selene POV
[Warning: Chapter contains descriptions of non-consensual sexual activity]
[Present]
"Selene..." Xavier was shaking my hand when I came back from my reverie. He had a worried expression as his face loomed over me. "Are you alright? You spaced out for nearly five minutes. Does the question bring back sad memories? Do you want to talk about it?"
I felt my throat tighten. Even though a few years have passed since the plane crash, I’ve never spoken about it, not to anyone. Even though Kragen didn’t ask me to keep our pact a secret, I couldn’t bring myself to bare out the truth, at least not now. Although I had a well-thought-out story regarding how I survived the crash, I still couldn’t say it out loud because this was the first time someone was asking me about it.
"I’m sorry, Xavier," I gave him an apologetic smile "I...I don’t want to talk about it," I said averting my eyes "Maybe another time but right now, it’s not something, I’m ready to share,".
He nodded. He seemed to have sensed my discomfort and didn’t press further. We continued sitting side by side as time passed until the sun began to set.
"We should go back now!" Xavier broke the silence, his eyes still on the setting sun.
"Yeah!" I nodded, my eyes still fixed on the setting sun "Tell me, Xavier, if I had stayed and told you about the baby... would you have let me keep it? Would you have loved me more? I know back then; the curse was more potent than it is now but do you think you would have tried to break out from the shackles and be a husband and a father at that moment?"