Chapter 139 Alpha Zion’s POV
And now? Now I see it all too late. The weight of it crushes my chest. I can’t even breathe.
God, I hate myself for being so blinded by pride, for burying my head in my own damn ass because of bitterness, for needing someone to hate so badly that I turned all my pain on her. She didn’t deserve it. She never did.
I wanted to run to her, to fall to my knees and apologize for everything I did... and everything I failed to do.
Because sometimes, the most painful thing isn’t what we do, it’s what we don’t do. I didn’t protect her when I should have. I didn’t love or respect the woman who was meant to be by my side, who I should’ve cherished until my last breath.
Instead, I was the one who let the coldness take root. I was the one who allowed her light, so bright, so beautiful, to slowly wither under the weight of my indifference and pride.
All because I was afraid.
Afraid that if I looked at her for even one more second, I’d forget everything I clung to and fall for her for her strength, her kindness, her spirit. So I built walls. I shut her out. I let my ego, my arrogance, my fear drive her away.
And still... she stayed. She gave me three years of her life. Three years of patience, effort, and sincerity.
And I? I crushed it beneath my feet.
I didn’t just hurt her. I destroyed the best thing that ever came into my life.
God... I’m a monster.