Chapter 234: Doomed.
Arissa’s heartbeat fastened. What did I just say? She asked herself. Her palms immediately turned sweaty and she fidgeted with her fingers.
She panicked, "I never meant those words, that was an accident," she said hurriedly refusing to look at Jocelyn. She fixed her eyes down to her toes.
Jocelyn placed a hand on Arissa’s shoulder but Arissa shook it off. The heavy words she just let out, left her frightened that she wish the earth would open up and swallow her.
She felt doomed!
When Arissa shook her hand off that way, it baffled Jocelyn. She doesn’t see those words as something someone should be ashamed of to say but for Arissa, she knows her friend so well to know that she doesn’t seem ashamed of those words.
Rather, she was afraid of those words and Jocelyn’s supportive instincts immediately kicked in.
"Relax," Jocelyn stood before her and held both sides of her shoulders, "It’s no crime falling for your husband. No one has that right more than you do," she said softly.
"I have no right," Arissa countered before Jocelyn would close her mouth, "I have no right to feel this way. The contract never stated this as a right,"
Remembering her words, all blood drained from her face. Over her twenty-three years on earth, this comment was the most dreadful she have ever said. The most unplanned, they left her lips before she would even think.
Jocelyn sat on her left side and pulled her into a side hug, "I understand how you feel but trust me, you have all right to feel this way about him. In the eyes of the law, he is your husband. Don’t let the mindset of a contract destroy your happiness. If he makes you happy with new reasons to live then I suggest you make this work." she advised.
Arissa pulled away from Jocelyn, "You don’t understand. I pushed him away a lot of times and it lead to unnecessary arguments between us. There was a certain time I even hurt him verbally."