Chapter 46: Shawn’s reason for leaving home
Shawn silently followed behind Franz with a crestfallen look. His head lowered and he kept sighing. He could have done better. Why didn’t he notice that the kid was sick? Even if it’s an internal fever, there are symptoms that he could have seen from the beginning!
His eyes watered. He felt sorry for the kid and blamed himself. His steps halted and he wallowed in agony and guilt. He shouldn’t have applied to be a nanny if he didn’t know how to properly take care of a child.
Franz noticed that the presence walking behind him disappeared. He looked back and saw Shawn standing a few meters away from them. He sighed and tapped his boyfriend’s arm, "Can you pay for the taxi for now? I’ll follow ahead."
His boyfriend nodded and left. Franz walked back to Shawn. He ruffled his head, which made Shawn lift his head and greet him in his pitiful state. Franz mumbled, "Hey, it’s not your fault."
Shawn looked away, "But I’m the one who was beside him...I should have known. I’ve been neglectful..."
"Well, you’re both sleeping so..." Franz tried to reason, but he couldn’t find the right words to lighten Shawn’s heavy feelings. The omega was born in an upper middle-class family, so it made sense that he had never babysat a child before. "Let’s go home for now."
Shawn shook his head, "I should...stay. Knox looked exhausted..."
Franz, "Athan is with him."
"Right...but still..."
Franz sighed. He knew Shawn would only sink in self-blame if he went home alone, and he might only be relieved if he saw Knoa wake up. So, Franz nodded and waved goodbye. He made sure to inform him once the child regained consciousness and he was discharged.
Shawn walked back to the corridor. He spotted a vending machine in the corner and decided to buy Knox and Athan coffee. He inserted a cash and pressed the codes of his choice.