Chapter 354: Changed Ambition
Jolene felt her heart tug by the honest confession of the man and turned to look at him. His eyes were misty, his lips were pink and glistening, and the fringes of his messy brown hair fell on his forehead and made him look vulnerable unlike his usual sleek style.
Her heart raced and she felt weak in her knees.
As a teenager, she had dreamt of the day Lambert would say these words to her. And today, he is saying those words to her with utmost sincerity.
But she is not a teenager anymore.
Yes, it hurts being away from him, but she needs to get used to it.
"Jolene, here I am, laying bare the feelings in my heart and the least you could do is being honest with me. Do you love me?"
Lambert repeated seeing Jolene bowing her head still unwilling to be honest with him. She looked at him with a smile and Lambert expected her answer.
"You’re feelings are not the only thing bare here - you’re too! Aren’t you going to-"
"Come on Jolene! Please," a sigh left his mouth inadvertently. "I can’t figure you out and that hurts my brain. The way you kiss me and the way you enjoy s*x together makes me want to believe that you love me. But..."
"Fine, Lambert. I’ll be honest." Jolene rubbed her face with both her hands and taking in a deep breath, looked at Lambert in the eye. "I love you. In fact I’ve loved you for more than ten years. Ever since the day I saw you in the school, I had a crush on you. And ever since you became my desk-mate, I fell in love with you. I like everything about you, even the fact that you like to wear cartoonish socks." Her throat almost closed as she expressed her feelings, but she felt her heart getting light and liberated as she acknowledged the truth.
"I miss you dearly when I can’t have at least a glance at you and being near you brings me happiness. But I cannot date you and I don’t want to fall deeper for you."