Chapter 204: Was He Late?
He kept this all in his heart for years... How much did he suffer alone? Why didn’t he tell me all this before? He didn’t trust me?
Rebecca remembered all those times he had attacks and how he would curl up to a ball and weep. How much he despised to visit his parents in the past... She thought it was because he felt guilty for driving that car while he was drunk, leading to his sister’s death. But it was more than that?
Why didn’t he tell me?
Her slender fingers trailed through his hair and there was emptiness in her eyes. She felt extremely bad for him and felt useless at the same time.
"My dad... My mom said she fell for that guy because he was rich and influential... My dad was just an attorney back then and he was not very rich, but was well off. Dad wanted to rise in ranks and he spent a lot of time at work and for sure that is no excuse for what my mom did. But she felt like it was acceptable... In the end, my sister was buried as my sister.... " Joe dragged a chair for Rebecca to sit and continued to speak.
" My mom blamed my father for everything and never accepted any blame. My father who had lost the daughter he thought he had and learnt that that daughter was not his because his wife cheated on him with a family friend, didn’t know for what he should grieve for, and started concentrating on work once more.
Times were tough back then and my mom tried to get me for support in case my father divorces. She said she was swayed by the power that man held and it was just an one time thing. She wanted me to take her side in case there was divorce.
I.. Couldn’t accept it. I was in my own darkness learning all those truths. I felt disgusted at my mom and myself for dating Rachel. I felt wronged by all...
My dad should have divorced my mom, but he didn’t. Instead he started ignoring her altogether and just thew money at her face whenever she asked. It was his way of saying that he was rich and powerful. At one point my mom asked for divorce, but my dad refused. He used all kind of methods to stop her from even hiring a lawyer. He showed how influential he was and my mom stopped trying to get out. She yearned for a powerful man and when the one she chose became one, she couldn’t wait to leave him. Rachel’s parents got divorced as truth came out.
Our two families who were close, started to pretend to be close in public. Everytime I saw Rachel, I felt bad since I felt that everything went wrong because of me. I broke up with Rachel and with the abundant money I had and with no supervision or care, I leaned to drugs... "
"It was dark... Becky... It was lonely and dark where I was... I was alone..." Joe tired to hold Rebecca’s hand. However, his hand stopped just a centimeter away from Rebecca’s hand as he remembered how she didn’t like his touch previously. He didn’t want her to leave without hearing him speak.