Chapter 561: Interview
The cameras rolled.
Ferdinand: "Danny. First cup final. How do you feel?"
"Calm. Which surprises me. I thought I’d be nervous by now. I thought the closer it got, the more I’d feel it. But the preparation is done. The squad is ready. The football is tested. And when the preparation is right, the nerves don’t come. The focus does."
Ferdinand: "Take me back. Take me back to the beginning. How was it, taking the reins of a club for the first time? And I don’t mean any club. I mean Crystal Palace in April 2017. A team that was losing matches. Low morale. Fans angry with the board. And they hand the job to a twenty-seven-year-old who has never managed a professional football match in his life. A youth team coach. No Premier League experience. No badges above his U18s qualification. And they say: go and fight off relegation."
"It was terrifying," I said.
"I won’t pretend it wasn’t. The first morning, I walked into the first-team dressing room and there were men in that room who had played more Premier League matches than I had watched. Benteke. Dann. Zaha. They looked at me and I could see the question in their faces: who is this kid? And the honest answer was: I didn’t know. I knew I could coach. I knew I could prepare a match. I knew I could read the game. But I didn’t know if I could manage men who were older than me, more experienced than me, and more famous than me. I found out in five matches."
Ferdinand: "Five matches. Five wins. You took them from a relegation dogfight to safety. Including a three-two win at Anfield. How did it feel? Leading Palace to five straight wins, getting them not just safe from relegation but to a European football spot, the highest finish in the club’s history. Well, when you remove the current season, of course."
I smiled. "It felt like I was doing the thing I was born to do. That sounds arrogant. It isn’t meant to be. It just felt right. The tactical plan worked. The players responded. And the fans, who had every reason to be sceptical, to be angry, to reject a twenty-seven-year-old who had been coaching their under-eighteens three weeks earlier, they backed me. From the first match. They didn’t know me. They didn’t trust me. But they gave me time. And time is the most valuable thing a football club can give a manager."
Ferdinand: "Then the summer. You sold more than half the squad. What was your thinking? And what’s your transfer policy? Because from what everyone can see, it’s working extraordinarily well. How does the behind the scenes work with you, Dougie Freedman, and Steve Parish?"
"The thinking was simple. The squad that survived relegation was not the squad that could compete in the top half. It was a group of good professionals who had performed brilliantly for five matches but whose ceiling was mid-table. To build the team I wanted, I needed different players. Players who fit the system, not the other way around. So we sold, and we reinvested, and we signed players who were undervalued by the market but overqualified for the position they were being asked to fill."
"The process is collaborative. Dougie identifies targets, I assess them tactically, Sarah Martinez analyses them statistically, and Parish makes the financial decisions. But the filter is always the same: does this player improve the identity? Not the squad. The identity. If a player is brilliant but doesn’t fit the system, we don’t sign him. If a player is unknown but fits the system perfectly, we sign him tomorrow."
Ferdinand leaned forward. "You have a talent for introducing young players. Blake. Olise. Kirby. Eze. Players who have come through the academy and who are now performing in the Premier League and in Europe. What is your process? How do you see which player is ready, which player is good enough to get playing time in the first team?"
"I coached those boys. I was their under-eighteens manager. I watched Blake learn to finish and manage his anger. I watched Olise develop that left foot. I watched Kirby grow from a boy who could pass into a boy who could control. I know them. Not from scouting reports. Not from data. From standing on the training pitch with them for a year and watching them every day. And the process for deciding who is ready is not complicated. If a player can do in training what the first team does in matches, he is ready. If he can’t, he isn’t. The system is the test. The system doesn’t care about age. It cares about understanding the footballing system."
Ferdinand leaned back. He was quiet for a moment. The quiet of a man who had played with Scholes and Giggs and Ronaldo and who understood what it took to make talented individuals function as a unit.
Ferdinand: "One thing nobody can deny, Danny. Your team is considered one of the best attacking teams in the country right now. The football you play, the movement, the pressing, the transitions, it’s beautiful to watch. But Crystal Palace, historically, were a defensive team. A team that sat deep, absorbed pressure, and counter-attacked. A Sam Allardyce team. A Tony Pulis team. How hard was it to get this group of talented players, from different countries, different leagues, different styles, to work together? To play together? To integrate into a system that is the complete opposite of what this club used to be? Because of that transformation, from a team that defends to a team that attacks, that is the thing I think people underestimate."
I thought about it. Not for the cameras. I thought about it because the question deserved a real answer.
"It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done," I said.
"Harder than the relegation fight. Harder than any individual match. Because you can win a match with adrenaline. You can survive five matches on belief. But building an identity, getting twenty-five men from Portugal and France and Colombia and Croatia and Ivory Coast and Croydon to play the same way, to think the same way, to press in the same moment and release in the same moment and see the same pass at the same time, that takes months. And in those months, you lose. You draw. You make mistakes. The press doesn’t work. The transitions break down. The players look at you and they’re not sure. They’re not sure it will work. They’re not sure you know what you’re doing."
I paused.
"August and September were the hardest. We drew three-all with City on the first day, which told everyone we could attack. But then we lost to Chelsea and Arsenal, and those defeats exposed every gap in the system. The defensive shape wasn’t right. The pressing triggers were inconsistent. Neves and Kirby were still learning to communicate. Konaté was eighteen and brilliant but he didn’t speak English well enough and his positioning was instinct, not structure. We were a team of individuals who could all play football but who couldn’t yet play together."
"So what changed?"
"Repetition. There is no secret. There is no magic formula. We trained the same patterns every day. The same press. The same triggers. The same movements. Sarah Martinez designed sessions that were so specific, so relentlessly focused on the system, that the players stopped thinking about it and started feeling it. And when a system moves from the brain to the body, when a player doesn’t have to think about where to press because his legs already know, that’s when it clicks. That’s when the football becomes beautiful. Not because the players are trying to play beautiful football. Because the structure is so embedded that the beauty is a by-product."
Ferdinand smiled. "A by-product."
"The best football always is. You don’t coach beauty. You coach structure. And when the structure is right, the beauty arrives on its own."
Ferdinand smiles: "And Sunday. The cup final. Crystal Palace have never won a major trophy. A hundred and twelve years. What would it mean? For the club. For the fans. For you."
I looked at the camera. Not at Ferdinand. At the camera. At the millions of people who would watch this on Saturday evening, the night before the final, the night before the hundred and twelve years either continued or ended.
"It would mean that everything we have built was worth building. That the identity works. That the pathway works. That the fans who have been coming to Selhurst Park for decades, who have watched this club lose more matches than they can count, who have never seen a trophy in a cabinet, were right to keep coming. Were right to keep believing." I paused. "It would mean that the boy from Moss Side kept his promise."
"What promise?"
"The promise I made to myself when I walked into this football club. That I would leave it better than I found it. And the best way to leave something better is to win something. So that is what we will try to do on Sunday."
The interview lasted forty-five minutes. It would air on BT Sport on Saturday evening, the night before the final. Ferdinand shook my hand afterwards and said: "Good luck on Sunday. You’re going to need it. Pep doesn’t lose finals."
"Neither do I," I said. "I’ve never been in one."
If you didn’t count the U18 FA Youth Cup final.
He laughed. Then he left, and the cameras left with him, and Beckenham returned to its operational quiet, and the afternoon belonged to Milan.