Chapter 118 - 2nd Side Story-07
LEON
I have never heard of anyone who doesn’t collect someone’s number and who comes and goes to their house more than they themselves do. But I have seen someone like that. And that is no one other than me. Yes, I don’t have Joe’s number.
I consider myself one of the most wisher men alive. But it appears that I am as useless as Jules. Good for nothing. There have been very few times when I have felt this frustrated.
So... how do I get Joe to meet me?
Joe once told me that Ruth stayed at John’s place. And he also told me where John lived. Should I go and check? Will he call me weird if I do this? I don’t have the time to think about all this. I need to find him. I need to find the answers to the broken questions inside me.
I need to know why I feel so empty when he is not around. Why do I want to see him everywhere? Why is it his voice that I always want to hear? I need to know. I have to know the reason behind my sleepless nights. I wasn’t like this before he came into my life. He made me like this. All breathless, sleepless, restless, and some unwanted desires.
This is 9 pm, I take my keys from the table counter and step out to look for the man who left and took my heart four weeks ago. And it’s all my fault, I let him go. I pushed him away without fighting for him... My grip around the stirring wheel tightens, making my knuckles go white as I drive through the streets.
I reach the apartment building. But the security is too high, so they won’t let me enter. So I make use of my influence and with just one call they let me enter the building. I look up to John’s apartment and seek it out. But when I ring the bell, my heart drumming inside my chest, no one answers. No one is at home.
I stand here, in front of his door, but no one is there to answer. After waiting for an hour, the gears in my head switch from anticipation to frustration and I turn on my heels. I feel so angry... angry at myself, for being this useless and letting the most precious thing slip away from me...