Chapter 41: Side Story-05
JOHN
I follow Ruth inside the hotel room. Who knew that he had everything on standby just to make me sleep with him? Currently my heart is beating so loudly, I fear that the big man can hear it too.
Never thought I would be this nervous just before a sex session. Truly speaking I have never really gotten my hole fucked before. And I had no intention to do it until this blond man showed up in my life. So, I have no experience of how it feels.
To think that I was the one who was telling Erwin how he can sleep with a fellow guy and look at me now, I might be willingly walking into a hornet’s nest. Not that I care though. But if Erwin knows about this, he will hunt me for this for the rest of my life and even after my death.
"Are you nervous?" Ruth wipes around to look at me with a glint in his green sage eyes that I can’t describe.
I shake my head, "No." I nervously try to avoid looking at him directly, a cold seat forming my hairline, "It’s just I have never been with a fellow guy before." I honestly say.
"Your knuckles are white." Ruth’s burning gaze swipes over my clenched fist, "Come here." He beckons.
I don’t relent and kick off my shoes before walking to him. I don’t want my shoes to hang on my foot while I have sex all naked. It doesn’t paint a beautiful picture, at least not to me.
Ruth gently lifts his hand and caresses my cheek while my heart is literally threatening me that it might jump out through my throat at any moment now. I still don’t look him in the eyes. "Look at me." Ruth coos softly, "I am not going to eat you."