Chapter 32: Wishes
>>Corvina
I died young twice and you know the saddest part both times?
I neither had a lover, nor did I ever get to experience what it was like to make love.
No matter how much I tried to let go of my feelings for Hael
I was in fact so madly in love with him in my first life, that I can't seem to let him go in this life either.
I let out a sigh
Tomorrow I turn eighteen
Our relationship has gotten better. I know I can only hope for it, but I hope he doesn't hate me anymore. I can't peek into his heart but I know he wouldn't help me in the cellar if he hated me. There would be no point in helping me, if he intends to kill me tomorrow. So, that thing aside, I know my feelings will never be returned but I don't wish for it either.
Our relationship is weird.
We were both in a toxic environment and it corrupted both of us in different ways. My love for him might only have stemmed from my obsession and the fact I only had him, but considering the fact I couldn't let him go even now must mean my feelings weren't fake.
But still, I realize that this isn't right. And now I only wish for us to find happiness. Relationships should be formed with positive feelings and this place, this house and this environment only offers dark ones.