Chapter 1400. Not Important Anymore 3
When he felt the faint warmth in his arms, Qi Feng felt his heart ease a little.
He sighed slightly and gently put the things in his hand back onto the tray beside him. Then, he patted her back gently. His raspy voice contained some elements of tenderness as he explained, “I never blamed you. Even though I find it hard to keep up with you, as long as we are willing to turn back and be a little more confident with each other, all of this will be worth it.”
Qi Feng’s words were sensitive as he sighed. Unexpectedly, Gu Lingsha felt joy that she thought she had lost and just regained.
“Ah Feng…I’m sorry. I wasn’t content, and I was too stubborn. Next time, I’ll trust you more. I just hope that you would stay true to me.” Gu Lingsha choked on her sobs as she blinked those teary, blue eyes and looked at Qi Feng with a faint light reflected in them. “At this point, I’ve got no other choice. Everything that I used to rely on is now all lost. Ah Feng, are you sure that you still want me? I…really have got nothing left anymore…”
Qi Feng paused with a sigh and lowered his head to kiss her on the head while his dark eyes flashed with a faint tenderness. He said in a low raspy voice, “Don’t think too much. No matter what happens, you still have me. Just let all those other things past. I admit that I do admire Xi Xiaye, but that’s just an admiration for an opponent just as how I admire Mu Yuchen. On the other hand, you are different from all the other women. Not only are you my wife, but you are also my daughter’s mother.”
At this point, Qi Feng suddenly stopped and reached out to hold Gu Lingsha’s hand. “You should know best how I feel about relationships between men and women. I’ve got no time for those things, and I’m determined not to go down my father’s path to avoid hurting so many women. In the end, he doesn’t seem to do any better. My mother was just one of the pitiful women who ended up with him. I found out from Morrison’s investigation that she loved him deeply. Perhaps, he did feel something for my mother before this, but no matter what, it couldn’t compare to Wang Qin. Right from the start, she was fated to never be able to join the Qi family…
“When I grew up, I told myself that I have to be smart, and I wished for true love. First, I’d have to be prepared to give up a lot. It’s not a bad thing to be a cold person. Many times, only when we live a little more selfishly can we lower the chances of getting hurt. This is first time I’m saying these things to you, and hopefully, it’ll be the last too,” Qi Feng said in a lowered tone, making Gu Lingsha feel gloomy too.
She had forgotten that someone as prideful and unfathomable like Qi Feng would never bring up all these unhappy things to her. Even if she had been by his side for many years, this was her first time hearing him bring up his mother and all the unhappy past.
She thought that perhaps such realization only hit hard since he had experienced it himself.