Chapter 42
Startled, I woke up! “Ugh… Huff!!”
I was soaked in sweat as I woke from the dream. No, it was a memory so vivid that it couldn’t simply be a dream. I was once again vividly experiencing my life as a child in the barn, and I had no choice but to do so.
My sixth life had begun.
“……”
Rather than feeling like I was losing my mind, I felt unlucky. Even after seeking a modest life to attain some peace, that turned out to be the beginning and culmination of a sinister plot. Despite my desperate struggles, the outcome was yet another cycle of rebirth.
“Damn it. I feel awful.”
Frowning, I touched my forehead. Fortunately, the pain vanished in an instant, leaving me mentally intact, but dying still felt awful. I spent a long time in the barn, listening to the sound of crickets, quietly soothing my mind.
In the midst of my confusion, I thought I needed to learn [How to End Suffering]. Until now, I was lucky enough to die quickly, but if I were to be killed horrifically, I doubted I’d keep my sanity. I must learn how to endure pain, for situations like torture or extortion.
Then, as my thoughts became clear, I began to think systematically.