Chapter 126: Arc 3, - 36: The Choices I Have Made
’Even if I stay put this loop, it’ll probably end up resetting and I’ll end up remembering and any of you somehow dying, I can’t take this forever... But...’
In a split second, everything felt like time had stopped. "JOTOU WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?" Fumeko’s voice.
"JOTOU! NO!" Hotaru’s.
"Jotou!?" Asobi’s...
Her eyes closed, moving the sword to her neck. Then it hit her, all the memories of her life, this one and the one on Earth. The moments she shared with those who screamed her name in this very second.
Every loop she spent, every memory she made. Were those not real? ’Or am I just choosing to believe they aren’t real anymore... All of that is still true, just hasn’t happened.
An insight I should never have. Basically, a paranoiac given a glimpse of the future—multiple possible ones. I lived through every single one... This isn’t the way... I can’t just give up now, can I...?
It’s too hard, but when has life ever made it easy? Only when I keep trying... I, I want to see those moments again...
Even if they’ll hate me for trying to kill myself in this moment... I need to stop making this a solution... Shit... It’s too late. I’ve already pushed the sword...’
In the momentary second, the armite blade made contact with her skin, a layer of spark came in between, like it was pushing the blade away from her neck and against the force of her hands. ’Huh? Wait, why- Why didn’t it pierce my neck?’
Before Jotou could finish her thought- "WOOSH!" A shadow reappeared onto Jotou, pushing her onto the ground. "THUD!" The blonde fell on her head.
Fumeko grappled the sword out of her hands and—"CLANG! Tang! Ting...!"—threw it away. Fumeko sat on top the fallen blonde, glaring back at Jotou after throwing the sword aside.