Chapter 14
Faith's voice cut through the haze of my pain, growing more desperate with each call. "You have no idea what you just did to me, babe! Did you even notice what I did for you?"
Her words fell on deaf ears. My self-esteem was lying somewhere back there on the ground where Ken had knocked me down.
I kept walking anyway, leaving her behind. Let Michael's ride come. Leaving her figure out her own way home. Right then, all I could focus on was this pain I never knew could feel so physical.
Standing at the gate, waiting for my ride, I caught myself doing something pathetic – looking back every few seconds, hoping to see her following. The emptiness behind me created this weird hollow feeling in my chest. Then I felt it – something wet rolling down my cheek. No, they weren't tears. Just... salty water drops. Wait... tears taste like salt? Damn. I really was crying.
"Fuck this" I said as I tried consoling myself, wiping the salty water off my face. My ride arrived and I entered.
"Now she gets to be with the main Guy". I thought.
"Who was I even kidding anyway?, Thinking a night at a would change my life". The pain sinking further into my heart as I made peace with my situation.
as I tried playing TYLER THE CREATOR's "Bastard" Song to console myself, I didn't know how I ended up playing Bruno Mars song.. Can't really remember the title but it had lyrics like "If you ever leave me baby.. Leave the morphine at my door, cause it will take a whole lots of medication.. To realise what blah blah blah.."..
My mind was racing with different thoughts and I felt like I was going to drown in them, so I brought out my phone, opened the Twitter app to see what was going on.
The first post I saw was a picture of me and Faith. The picture was taken when the both of us arrived at the party yesterday evening.
It had the caption: