Chapter 69 - 68 The Long Night
Lin Wu sat on the ground and said, "One of my college roommates had a lot going for him, except that he was awkward and became tongue-tied around girls he liked. He couldn’t relax. He told me that girls knew he was a good man, but girls don’t want a good man, they prefer bad boys. Being sweet-talked into deception, crying one’s heart out for love, that’s what makes up a perfect relationship."
Shana seemed to understand, "So that’s why you don’t pay attention to girls. I mean, romantically and emotionally."
Lin Wu thought back to his past and said, "It was beautiful, but also exhausting. My first relationship was in the final year of middle school, with the girl next door, who was very clingy. The second one was in college, with a very rational and mature-minded girl. The sweetest highs usually come with special kinds of lows."
Lin Wu continued, "The first girl was under my care. I woke her with a phone call, carried her books, bought breakfast for her, waited for her after school, and helped her with homework. It felt immersive at the start, but later it left me physically and mentally drained. She grew used to asking all of my time for herself, leaving me with almost no private time."
Shana asked, "And the second one?"
Lin Wu replied, "The opposite, she arranged everything for me, what subjects to read, what certifications to take. For the sake of my health, she even prescribed my diet. Just like the first relationship, initially feeling loved was extremely joyful. But over time, the rebelliousness and mischief in my bones couldn’t be restrained."
Shana nodded, "What you’re looking for is her help when you need it, not you having to accommodate everything she wants you to do. Is that it? You haven’t had enough experience to say, ’I don’t need girls to have a good opinion of me.’
Lin Wu shook his head, "Love is too luxurious, too heavy. When you become someone’s boyfriend, you take on a lot of responsibilities. It’s a human life, just like plants have a lifespan, wouldn’t it be nice to walk through this journey lightly? Why burden oneself with countless responsibilities? Boyfriend, husband, father—you lose yourself in all of these roles."
"I’m surprised, as a recent college graduate, how could you come up with such a theory?" Shana said, "This seems like a thought only a middle-aged person weighed down by life would have."