Chapter 9: Learning Control
"There are times when your magic power goes into overdrive, most of the time this is a self preservation tactic the magic energy automatically activates thanks to your mental state even though you're not actively making it do that. 'You and the magic energy are one being, yet you are two separate entities."
"For your current situation, think of the energy being a guard dog that's your best friend and you are a child that's being threatened, right now that dog has gone rabid and it's threatening and biting anything that dares to get close to you. That's why your magic energy is going ape shit."
"To sense the energy, you need to pay close attention to you body.
"Just feel it inside your body, it will be like there are specific points that the pain is originating from it will feel like there's vibrations coming from those points, those are called your energy nodes. While you are trying to calm the energy, those points will slowly stop vibrating so much. You won't be able to stop them from vibrating completely, that's because there's still energy in your body. Unless you completely exhaust the energy in your body, 'As long as there's a vibration there is energy, and there will be no vibration if there's no energy. But try to make the violent vibrations stop. If you want to control it you'll first need to calm down completely, your magic power will sense that you're safe when it feels your emotion and it will also do the same. You can try using an inner voice to just keep saying 'it's okay, you're safe.' You can even say it out loud if you like, just talk to the energy, feel it, console it, tame it, control it."
Drake immediately realized what she was saying when she described it like this. It was true that even though he had been trying to keep calm actually deep down he was still anxious and terrified that he was in danger of death. After all even the strongest man or a madman was terrified of death talk less of him. He just knew how to control himself better in times of fear.
Drake quickly got to work, first things first he tried feeling the origin of the pain he kept experiencing, but he didn't try to search his whole body all at once instead he tried focusing on only his hand. True to what had been explained, he found the points on his body where the pain was coming from one was in the center of his palm, but then something else happened.
He had kept both eyes closed so he could concentrate more clearly and to prevent distractions, but as he focused more on that specific point he soon realized that somehow he could almost see the activity inside his palm.
At first he thought it was only his imagination but the more focused he was the clearer it got, it was like he had opened another eye, one that had been closed for a long time or in his case one that he never knew he had and so it had never been opened before. It allowed him to see the inside of his body though it was blurred at first the more concentrated he was the clearer it got and soon he was able to clearly see the inside of his body.
From his muscles, to his bones, blood vessels and cells, and even what he thought were the nerves. It was quite the strange feeling he had never felt so aware and in control before, it shocked him. 'Is this the inner vision that she mentioned but she said I don't have the telepath affinity. Maybe I'll ask her about it later.' He thought then returned his attention to the source of the discomfort.
Then he saw it looked like a bubble, it contained a type violet colored substance. It looked similar to smog or mist or was it vapor or liquid. He didn't know what to call it. 'So this is an energy node!' he exclaimed inwardly. It was shaking extremely violently, hell it looked like it was about to burst, with several bulges all over it, making its surface irregular all around.
Taking a deep breath, Drake stopped thinking about anything else. He didn't forcibly try to force himself to calm down, he didn't try using any meditation techniques or whatnot, he just let himself relax. Sometimes he would remember everything he had done tonight, or maybe something he had seen while browsing on his Sky link or other random things, he didn't do anything but tell that thing and himself that he was safe and there were no enemies around, no one could hurt him.