Chapter 69: Wu Yu 09 (2)
Perhaps she did not know this, but I had to muster all my will to not go after her.
When I saw her at twilight to fetch her for dinner, her rosy cheeks and red lips, I felt a hint of selfishness again.
When I kissed her, I felt my heart really trembling for a lady. I noticed I had been holding myself back plenty of times. Perhaps it was the numerous dangers we had gone through together that finally caused me to make up my mind to not indulge myself. Yet the thought of holding myself back had backfired, which resulted in me kissing her passionately.
I knew I could not bring her down to where I was. I had been wasting my time, searching for revenge. From certain perspectives, I could be considered a degenerate. That was why I could not get her involved. If I were unable to do good by her and instead brought her into danger, then how could we even be in a relationship?
Or perhaps, deep inside of me, I had become fearful of losing someone dear to me again.
When I saw her again on the ship, she looked annoyed and seemed like she had things to say. I know how she felt. Yet, we were now in this situation and unable to know what would happen. I needed to protect her.
That was why I walked toward her.
I caught a glimpse of sadness in her eyes, but before I could react, I was holding her in my arms. I wonder if she knew that if she looked at me like that a few more times, I would give up and selfishly date her. I would not care at all how things would turn out.
I knew she was a kind girl, and under such circumstances, I needed her help. As such, I asked her to help me save Wu Miao. Sure enough, she agreed and even became very friendly with Wu Miao. I knew she was doing this because she was kind and not because she wanted to impress me. After all, when we re-entered Wu Miao’s room, she did not look at me anymore.