Book 11: Chapter 49
“Ling Yue, I’ve, actually, always had a question I wanted to ask you.”
“What?” asked Ling Yue. She smiled at Evelyn, who was next to her. “What is it Queen of the North? What did you want to ask me?”
Evelyn asked, “What exactly do you like about that man? Are you all right with being his mistress, as well? You’re pregnant now, and you don’t want to tell him, because you’re worried he has things to attend to? Why do you give up so much for him?’
Ling Yue wagged her tail and pondered it for a while before replying. “Honestly, it is quite simple. You love Leah, so are you willing to be considerate of her? Are you worried about her getting injured, getting hurt, upset and would rather take it all upon yourself in her place, instead?”
“If I had that chance, I definitely would.”
Ling Yue smiled. “The same applies for me. This is my own wilfulness. I wanted my own child when I saw Lucia. The North is warm now. The rivers are finally flowing. Basic living conditions are now available there, and his rule in the North has officially begun, but I have chosen now to be pregnant. He will definitely choose to stay by my side. I cannot make him give up the North. I cannot make him suffer for another ten months. I want to let him do what he should. I want to let him focus on the North again, and I want him to give Lucia attention. I have you with me, and I do not really need anybody to take care of me and, therefore, do not plan to tell him.”
“Is that so…?”
“I love him. I am sure of that, so I do not want him to give up the North a second time for his wife.” Ling Yue looked up at the timber ceiling of the carriage. Quietly, she laughed. “He held me in his arms when I was on the verge of death. He took me in when I was at the end of the road. He returned to my side when I was alone and lonely despite me having told him I do not need him. He was always by my side looking after me, comforting me and protecting me. How can I not love a man who did all of that for me? I love him. That is why I am willing to bear everything for him.”
“But it is his child, as well. I think that you should tell him.”