Book 11: Chapter 47
I genuinely wanted to make a trip back to Hilles City. Mommy Elizabeth was there. Some strange things happened between us when I left, and I still remember it like it was yesterday. I don’t know why I did that back then myself.
‘Was it an impulse of the moment on my part or do I genuinely hold some strange feelings for Mommy Elizabeth?’
She was my mom to me. Based on my human memory, she was my biological mom. She was still considered my mother who gave me my body and heart in spite of us not being together all the time initially. It was just that my organs were remodelled once by Mommy Vyvyan. However, Mommy Elizabeth didn’t give me motherly love despite giving birth to me.
Vyvyan was the one who gave me motherly love. That was why I was more afraid of something happening between me and Mommy Vyvyan compared to with Elizabeth. Mommy Vyvyan was more of a motherly figure to me, while Mommy Elizabeth was a mom I needed to acknowledge.
I think I started developing weird feelings for Mommy Elizabeth after we kissed with our masks on. With that said, I didn’t want to speak of her in her presence, and I didn’t know why I didn’t want to talk about her to anybody. I hugged her when I left; I even kissed her for that matter. I was back, so I should go and see her. Sadly, she had left Troy City. She had returned to Hilles City, the resting place of the phoenix.
Perhaps she had been by my side for too long. She didn’t do anything while she was at Troy City. She just looked after Nier in peace, took strolls, rode horses every day, sometimes found somebody to spar with, drink tea and eat. It was a time of total relaxation to her.
I saw so many of her smiles here, as well. Elizabeth basically didn’t smile but when she was by my side, in my nest at Troy City, she always smiled blissfully and tranquilly. I didn’t know if she, like me, forgot her identity and what she needed to do. By that I meant that I only just remembered that Elizabeth wasn’t a normal aristocrat, but the Empress of the empire. She was the almighty Empress who established and maintained the empire. She was the strongest representative of the empire. Perhaps I should say she was this empire. I forgot that and maybe she did, too.
I ruled Troy City as its lord in peace. I lived in peace as the Prince of humanity, as Lucia and Nier’s husband and as her child. Elizabeth, too, lived as a mother in peace. We forgot our duties when we were at Troy City.
I thought I was fine, but I overlooked something: Mommy Elizabeth was fated to not be able to be by my side. The palace was her cage. She had left, but that palace was still her cage. No matter how long she lived for, she inevitably had to obediently return in the end.