Book 11: Chapter 25
“Your Majesty, how do you intend to deal with the group of envoys?”
“Let them go.”
“Your Majesty…”
I pressed my hand to my forehead and sat into my chair, feeling exhausted. I weakly responded, “Ling Yue is right. They haven’t done anything wrong. It’s not their mistake that they were sent here.”
Tanya looked at me and softly said, “Is this your command, or is it Miss Ling Yue’s idea? I am very sorry, Your Majesty. It is just that you change your commands too haphazardly, so I need to confirm it.”
“Ling Yue reminded me. That’s why I’m changing my order,” I answered. I sat straight up and sighed. I looked outside somewhat lifelessly and softly went on, “I get it now. I now know what I was doing before. After Luna died, I kept acting on my wilful desires. I kept on coming up with reasons to kill people, so that I could kill. I wasn’t killing for vengeance or to protect those around me. I was merely looking for excuses to kill. That’s how it is.”
“Your Majesty…”
“How many people did I kill after Luna died? How many of them deserved to die? How many of them didn’t deserve to die? I killed countless people who had nothing to do with it and told myself it was to ensure I got rid of the root of the issue. I had no need to kill the panthers, and I had no need to strangle Marvel’s wife to death… I was just killing people… I was just killing.”
“Your Majesty, you are not bad. You are very gentle to others. The people you killed all deserved to die.”