Book 8: Chapter 42
There’s nobody to wake me up anymore, because the one who could wake me up is no longer here.
However, I wake up on time every morning with Nier lying next to me. Nier had my arm locked in hers as she took soft breaths. I touched my face and discovered traces of tears.
‘I dreamt of Luna again last night. She looked so cheerful. Luna’s smile was so bright. The sun in my dream was so bright, so why did I have traces of tears all over my face when I woke up? Why did I cry so painfully in my dream? Maybe it’s because we’re no longer together.’
‘This isn’t a mother and son quarrel. It wouldn’t be an issue even if it was a mother and son quarrel. I argued a fair bit with Mom when I was young, but I wasn’t arguing with Mom this time because I was wilful or didn’t understand her; I was arguing with her, because of Luna. It’s clear as day that Luna was brutally killed. Her heart got dug out for crying out loud. I can’t even imagine how much it hurt when she died. Why did Alice get to die with a smile, be put to rest in the royal family’s cemetery and enjoy the treatment of a hero? Are you telling me my child has to face her tombstone and call her a hero?’
‘I can’t take that. There’s no way in hell I can accept that.’
‘I hate her to the core. I want to grind her bone to powder, and then scatter it.’
‘I can’t kill Alice now, but I still want to completely annihilate her. I want to erase every single trace of her existence in this world. She can’t feel it anymore. I want to make it, so that nobody will remember her in the future. I want to completely erase her meaning in life. I want everybody to remember Luna. I want to them to remember the beauty that died for me.’
‘I’d die to make that a reality. I don’t intend to just sit here on my ass waiting for Mom to come and apologise. If that’s what my plan was, I wouldn’t have left. I must bring Luna back. I don’t want anyone, but me, to send her home. I’m going to personally bring her home.’
‘I’ll make sure to bring her back if it’s the last thing I do. I can’t take this shit. Luna is my personal servant, my vassal and the girl I love. I honestly can’t take this. If I just watch this all happen with a blank look on my face, then I’ll still be the powerless version of myself.’