Book 4: Chapter 5
I walked on the street with my head down causing me to bump someone aside. I didn’t know where I was headed or if there was any point in coming out here on my own. I was just furious, very furious. A fit of anger is meaningless.
I know.
I understand that.
But I don’t have anything other than my rage right now. Rage is a meaningless thing to Castell, but it’s the only thing I possess, even though it’s absolutely meaningless. It won’t let me have my revenge, but it reminds me that Mera once lived and gives me the courage to stand before any man.
I’m not going to let Mera’s death be in vain. When I left, Mera watched me leave from behind. You want me to give up just because I could be in danger? How am I going to look her in the eye when I return if I just give up?
But who else can I ask to help me here? I don’t have anyone who’s loyal to me here. The freezing winds blew on my face, freezing my skin as I walked down the road. Nobody will stop for me. I’m alone here in humanity’s lands, just as Castell mentioned. Without the empress’s protection, I’m nobody here.
Castell’s loyalty is devoted to the empress, and so is Nier’s. The only one who can stand by my side is Luna, but she can’t help me.
I stopped in my tracks. A huge helpless and lonely feeling hit me hard, blurring my vision. I rubbed my nose. I don’t know if my nose was irritated by the cold winds outside or the hopelessness I felt in my heart. Everybody around wrapped their overcoats around themselves tightly and left like birds returning home to their respective nests. I was left standing alone in the middle of the road like a spirit that didn’t belong in this world. Nobody paid attention to me, nor did anybody care about me. I just stood there, watching them hurrying along.
I rubbed my eyes to restore my vision and took in a big breath as I quivered and looked at the tall tower in the distance. The large clock’s bronze colour glimmered below the flare. The majestic aura of the huge church echoed with the palace as if it represented the location of the leader of the spirit of the citizens. The angel with two wings on the tower looked down at the people, is if it were fondly overlooking its citizens.
