Book 3.5: Chapter 4
“That was the happiest time in mommy’s life. Mommy ate with your father every day, chatted with him, learnt the elven language, and learnt swordsmanship. Perhaps mommy was a born swordplay genius, hehe. Mommy isn’t bragging. Mommy only stayed there for two years, but when mommy left, not even your dad could beat me. Lorana is also a very formidable swordswoman. I think she is the strongest on the continent even though she’s an elf.
I hunted and lived with the elves during the day. I lay on the grass and chatted, I bathed with that woman by the river, and we’d share the same bed and chat at night. At the time, that woman and I were very close. We always hugged each other when we slept. I don’t know when I fell for your dad either. I was also aware that that woman had always liked her brother. However, after spending time together for over a year like that, we confessed under a tree.
I can still see that large tree in my dreams. It was so large it looked like it ascended into the clouds. The vacant area was a rare sight in the forest and there was only that large tree there. That night, your dad and I snuck out. He looked at me and made a ring out of grass, wore it onto my ring finger, and proposed to me.
That was silly, wasn’t it? I was that silly back then. He said that when elves decide to propose own their own accord, they needed to propose underneath the ancient tree, but since the ancient tree wasn’t there, he just proposed under that tree. I was very stupid back then. I was so stupid I was moved to tears by the ring your dad made out of grass. After I agreed, we hugged and kissed, becoming a couple under that tree. Perhaps it was after that time that you came into the world and shared my body.
If I think about it now, it wasn’t blissful at all back then. Sometimes we’d have nothing to eat. There were no berries during winter. Even animals were a rare sight. We had no salt, so we had to lick rocks for salt. We even had to melt snow to drink during winters. But thanks to the miraculous medical practices of the elves, I never had to go through any torturous sick experiences.
But even so, that period of time was as beautiful as a fantasy. I had my lover, my friend, and you, my beloved son. Back then, after that woman found out that we were a couple, she wasn’t particularly sad. She even gave us her blessings. I ran away from marriage but ended up finding true love, and the princess and prince got together like in a fairy tale. Your father and I truly believed that after completing our training and returning to our respective nations, humans and elves would be able to communicate, and like us could definitely get to know each other and fall in love with each other.
But we couldn’t realise our ideal. My belly soon caught the attention of Lorana. As an elf, she was enraged. She forced me to leave. Elven royalty will not accept mixed blooded off-spring. Not even normal elves could accept mixed-blooded elves. Mixed-blooded elves are seen as filth. I’m not sure where we got the courage from, but your father and I eloped.
I don’t know how long we ran for, but my body started to give in. After brooding for a long time, your dad decided to let me give birth to you at an elf village. That village produced gold. The villagers didn’t reject the weak me, and to the contrary, treated me passionately, allowing me to give birth to you in the village.
Son, you have no idea how happy I was when I saw you. When I opened my eyes and saw you breathing by my side, I was so happy I almost passed out. I just wanted to hold you every day, and kiss you on your forehead every day. You were so gentle back then. When I fed you, you never bit me. You would gently place your hands on my breast and smile afterwards.