Book 2: Chapter 49
What timing. My body started hurting right after dinner when the sun just went down. I deliberately drank lots of alcohol at dinner to try and get myself drunk so as to relieve myself of some of the pain. But in the end, it was like all the alcohol vanished into a void and I was awake as if I was on stimulants.
Far out. Have I no choice but to put up with the pain?
I struggled to crawl into bed. Nier walked up to me with a rope and looked at me, then bowed and said: “Sorry, your majesty.”
“Hurry.”
I clenched my teeth and with my last ounce of sanity, stopped myself from getting up. I was feeling extremely irritated. I wanted to destroy everything around me, and kill every living thing around me. I think I’ll have a mental breakdown if I don’t tie myself up.
Nier tied me up tightly to the bed. My arms, legs and even neck were tied up. If I tried to lift my head up, I’d end up strangling myself. Nier is great at tying people up. After a few circles and knots, I could only move my head. Nier noticed I had a bunch of cloth in my hand. She hesitated for a moment before exiting.
The pain slowly began to spread throughout my body. The pain inside me which felt like it was going to explode and find a way to escape outside ravaged my insides. I wanted to be strong and not cry out, but after just five minutes, I couldn’t put up with it. I roared loudly and struggled with all my might to move my immobilised body. I knew that crying out was futile, but the energy I released through my cries relieved me of the pain somewhat.
I never thought I could cry and shout like this. As a matter of fact, I never thought a human being could cry out in such a way that all one’s hairs would stand up. It was so embarrassing for a guy to cry out like that. However, that was the only thing which could slightly relieve me of the pain.
My mind broke under the pain a lot quicker than I estimated. It was about an hour in, when a ray of light from the moon shone in under the hem of the curtain that I lost my conscious.