Chapter 569-Me, Myself And Her
Emmet:
"She got upset last time, so now you’re writing her name to make sure you don’t forget about her?" Meret laughed, watching me write her name in my diary repeatedly. Page after page, I would write Helanie’s name, thinking it could help with the curse.
"Emmet, this is why I didn’t want you to fall for her." My wolf stopped laughing when he probably realized I wasn’t in the mood for jokes. I hadn’t been in the mood for jokes ever since I couldn’t marry Helanie in time.
"I am losing my mind. Just yesterday, I was staring at the sky in the woods, wondering why I was there in the middle of the night. Then I saw Maximus in his lycan form, and my first instinct was to defend myself and kill the beast. Meret, if you weren’t there and remembered more than I did, I would have transformed and attacked my own brother. It’s not about who would have gotten more injuries, it’s about betrayal. Maximus is still a child at heart; he would never forget that his brother attacked him in his miserable state," I said, my eyes filling with tears.
"And you’re afraid you’ll hurt your mate too?" he asked.
"I’m afraid I’ll hurt everyone. With power like mine, I’m a danger to the world if I lose my memory," I whispered, closing the diary.
They must have taken care of that student today. I refused to go because after I retrieved her diary and read the disturbing stuff she wrote about Helanie, I felt inhuman. I had a feeling I might lose my calm and attack her then and there. My human side was breaking down, forgetting it even existed. The animal side would take over because a human without consciousness is nothing but an animal, and the animal inside me still remains an animal.
When I reached the academy, I heard from Lamar and Gavin that Norman had asked Penn to join him in the woods. Which was odd because I didn’t remember who Penn was until he appeared in front of me.
I didn’t have any memory of my interactions with him, but his face seemed familiar. He told me that Helanie took Norman’s hand and dragged him into the woods, probably volunteering to fight the Zharns out of anger that Norman targeted her friend.