Chapter 89: The Other Side
"Only if you tell me why you left me twice..." Riven responded. He needed to know. Without that knowledge, he wouldn’t be able to let go of the gnawing pain that kept clawing at his heart. He knew that he was insecure because he was simply a transmigrator... Not his original mate. So he needed to know Ronan’s reasoning.
Riven kind of knew why. It was the same reason why the Riven in the story died. Ronan viewed his mate as a weakness. Something that could be used against him, someone who would make him more vulnerable.
He believed that attachments were a flaw and love was something that could make him weak. Riven knew all of this, but still...
Ronan, after seeing how disgusting his father and the alphas before him behaved, he felt the need to prove himself to be the best leader, no distractions... That all changed when he met Eli, of course. He melted that frozen heart.
He still wanted to hear it from Ronan’s mouth. Was that the reason? Or was there another reason? Based on the answer Ronan gives, he would decide what to do.
Ronan froze, his hands resting on Riven’s thighs as he struggled to find the right words.
"I-" Ronan started to speak, "I wanted to be the perfect leader, someone who is not distracted by something like this. I had to undo a lot of damage done by my predecessors, and I feared that I would turn out like them. Irrational, selfish and greedy."
His icy blue eyes, which were always cold, showed cracks, a hint of vulnerability.
"Am I not a distraction anymore then? What if I was not your mate? What if the elders try to kill me because I am a guy?" Riven said softly, he met Ronan’s gaze with uncertainty.