Chapter 55: Darkness
Kaya
"Take a long, hot bath and a nap if you can," Samantha suggests as she follows me to my room. "And make sure to have a big meal for dinner. I heard Alpha Magnus is going to train you later, too."
I blink a few times, feeling a sense of despair washing over me. I have completely forgotten that I have to meet Magnus later tonight, and now that Sam has reminded me, I suddenly want to cry.
"Kaya? Why do you suddenly look so pale?"
She helps me enter my room, a frown of concern etched between her dark eyebrows. "Are you scared?" She then scoffs. "Don’t worry, Alpha Magnus might be stern, but he is not a monster. I’m sure he won’t go hard on you on your very first session."
Last night’s memories come rushing through my mind again. Was that not going hard, too?
"You gotta hand it to him, though," Samantha continues, going through my nightstand in search of a towel. "He already has a lot on his plate. With the disappearing cases and all. Yet, he still cuts out time for taking care of all of us. Others think of him as a monster, but truthfully, he is the best damn alpha one could hope for. You’ll see."
Strangely, I somehow feel that Sam is completely right. I felt it when I first met Magnus at the Diamond Claw’s house. I felt it when he made so many arrangements to make me feel comfortable in his pack. I felt it during my first forest run, and...
Suddenly, I blush as I remember him so close to me when his body trapped mine underneath his. I gotta stop being like this. I guess... I miss being closer to someone. With Damien...
I shake my head in an attempt to get rid of the image of him. Damien was much more than just my alpha––he said he was my mate. And I trusted him. But the things that happened with Alpha Arcanis and the fact that he threw me out so easily...