Book 5. Chapter 35: Resolve
I had to defeat Father.
The thought was like asking the sun to die. Or the earth to stop spinning. Father was a force of nature, the single constant in my life that couldn’t be beat without the world throwing absolutely everything it could at him. It had to grind him down hour on end, alone and forced to protect an unconscious son. Against a small army of monsters that never relented.
Only then was the world able to actually beat Father.
This was when he was still breathing, limited by a human body. Now he was stronger than an actual demi-god, and just as immortal.
There was no winning. In two months, I’d be forced to say goodbye to Wrath, likely forever. The thought burned a hole in my head again, like a pain that came back in waves.
The next few days were not ones I felt proud of.
Shut myself into my room, hid under the blankets and tried to zone the world away.
Hexis was the first to realize I'd gone missing within the day, because he sent a strongly worded letter to the estate ground to be delivered directly to my doorstep. Likely extremely annoyed I hadn't showed up for the daily lessons. That letter was handed off to the servants who then came to pass it to me.
A few more days passed, and they noticed I didn’t accept much food anymore and wasn't coming out of my room. They knocked, and I told them to leave me alone. So they sent Kidra after me. She didn’t take “Leave me alone” as an acceptable answer. My sister cut the locks on my door with her occult blade and then walked right in.