Chapter 149: Return to Huashan
“Maybe I'm thinking about Feifei. Or maybe just what she said. You see, the last few days I've been thinking about my life and it turns out that I really am a coward.!”
Feng took a sip from the bottle and took several long sips. Lin Yi suddenly noticed that the bottle was not the first.
“Even in my youth, the elders saw my talent for wielding a sword, so they ordered me to train. I was the eldest, so I was told not only to train myself, but also to become an example for others. Well, that is, I myself wanted to be seen as an example. So I trained hard every day. When they were training, I was training. While they were having breakfast, I was training. When they played, I trained. Even when they were sleeping, I was still training. All my childhood I studied swordsmanship.”
“Having entered Huashan, I was already on the verge of perfection, so they added loads and immediately gave me the sutra of internal strength. In just a few months I was able to open my inner strength, and in a few years I was able to open all twelve primary meridians. I became the Huashan Heavenly Talent.”
“But instead of pride, I felt only disappointment. I have to serve as an example to the younger ones, so I can’t rest for a minute, every day I need to train, train, and train. They all think I love swinging a sword, but there's nothing in this world I hate more than fucking swords! I'm so tired!”
“I was raised with the knowledge that righteous and wicked people cannot live in peace, that they are all cunning and crazy demons, so I found my purpose in killing demons. And then I met Duan Feifei. And I learned that she was the holy virgin of the cult. I still don't understand how this can be. And why have I never thought before that there can also be good people in vicious cults?.”
“No, Duan Feifei has a terrible character, she is an arrogant and arrogant girl. But she has a good heart. She is kinder than many righteous people I have known! And yet we cannot be together, because she is a “vicious demon”, and I am a “righteous disciple”. So where is the truth?! Where is vice and where is righteousness??!”
“Also the place of the main student. I don't want to become one. But how can I fail the elders and my comrades? They say no one is better suited for this position than me. That's what they all say! All! But I told them that I didn’t want to, that I didn’t believe in it. And yet... it's like sword training as a child. I don't want to disappoint them...”
“I really don't want to. But after staying in Hangzhou for half a month, I began to think that they were mistaken. I'm not fit to be the head student. You're coming, Junior Brother Lin. You. The Hangzhou court is thriving and I was more amazed than anyone, I swear. Defeat forty-nine experts at the top of the second rank in a row! Then capture Eagle Mountain and even kill a first-class expert.”