Chapter 2: Adilun (1)
As soon as the flood of memories ended, the emotions that came over me were embarrassment, guilt, and confusion.
Confusion and embarrassment come from realizing that the world that I have lived in, is a world of a novel.
'No, no.'
This is not a false world or a simple novel.
It is a deserved real world where countless people live and breathe.
And the 20 years of living as Physis Ortaire supported it too.
People of this world are not simply fictional characters, they are real. This is a world in which every person passing by on the street, sometimes crying and sometimes laughing, has his or her own life.
The confusion about this world and me was resolved not too long ago, but now there was a more big problem ahead of me.
'Guilt.'
The guilt I was feeling now weighed me down with the weight of the 20 years I had lived.
Among them, the greatest guilt came from what I said to Adilun.
Just yesterday, I told her: