Chapter 219: Come Back To Me
(TYLER)
The only thing that is keeping me from losing my mind is the steady beeping of the monitor. It comforts and torments me at the same time. It is proof that Sasha still clings to life, but also a reminder of how precarious that hold is.. I sit up curled on the uncomfortable chair, knees drawn to my chest.
If only I had been more alert. If only I had seen the danger sooner, Sasha wouldn’t have been shot. It should be me lying in this bed and not him. Sasha has always risked everything to protect me. Now, I watch the steady rise and fall of his chest, hoping that he will survive this nightmare.
I reach out and touch Sasha’s hand, careful to avoid disturbing the IV line running through him. His skin feels cool, nothing like the usual warmth that I’m used to. "Why, why didn’t you just let me―"
I can barely bring myself to finish the sentence. The guilt inside me feels like a living thing clawing at me, making it hard for me to breathe. Every time I close my eyes, I see it happening again. The memory plays in my lead like an endless loop. Then a voice snaps me from my thoughts.
"I was wondering if we could get a better mattress for the camp bed?" Wesley’s murmuring outside the door, but it is still cracked open enough that I can hear him.
"I’ll talk to them about it." A female voice answers, hushed just as Jericho’s. That has to be the nurse, I think. It only makes sense that it is her. She has always had a soft spot for me, and more especially because the Adonis family has been making huge donations to this hospital.
Sasha hasn’t woken up. The doctors have run several other tests. I’m told, yet again, that this is a waiting game. That he will wake up on his own when he is ready.
My hand tightens around his fingers. "I’m so sorry," I mumble silently. "I’m so sorry, none of this would have happened if I hadn’t gone along on your quest." The words leave me in a desperate rush. "All you did was try and protect me, and I put you in danger. Some omega I am, I couldn’t keep you safe―" I wish he could just hurry up and wake up.