Chapter 68: You Must Know That
(SASHA)
I can’t concentrate after I argue with Tyler. I go to my study and try to force myself to work but my mind keeps churning with the words we hurled at each other.
You act as if you are carrying the spawn of the devil.
That’s because I am.
I cannot face the truth. I don’t fucking want to. I know in my gut who that child’ father is. Everything clicked into place the minute he mentioned carrying the devil’s spawn. I now understand why Tyler couldn’t take his eyes off Angelo. I now understand the fear in his eyes. The secretiveness and the sneaking around at the funeral. I now understand Angelo’s possessive and threatening demeanour towards Tyler. In my mind, I thought they didn’t know each other.
In truth, they were lovers.
I want to vomit. The very idea of Angelo fucking Tyler makes me physically ill. My hands tremble as I clutch the arm of my chair, pushing myself up. I pace across the room, not having an idea what to do next.
If I tell Tyler anything, he will run away. That I’m certain of. But shouldn’t I want him gone? Shouldn’t I want him out of my proximity? My pride should have me rushing upstairs to confront Tyler, yet here I am trying to find a way to not lose my mind with jealousy.
A knock at the door startles me and for a moment, I hope that it’s Tyler. I want him to come to me and face me with the truth as it is. However bad he thinks it is. Maybe then I can reconsider and forgive him. Had he trusted me earlier and come to me with the secret, maybe I would have accepted it.
It’s not Tyler however. It is Miles. He walks into the room all cheerful and jovial until he sees my face.
"What’s the matter?" he asks, gazing at me with concern.