Chapter 12: I met their father, Mr Kim
It was so silly of me to think someone as good-looking as Dr Geumtae would flirt with me. I wasn't anything special so why would anyone look at me?
I clutched onto my pillow as the words of the exes I had played in my head,
'You cry and tremble when it's time to put it in like a damn virgin. Even if you're a virgin, this is too much for me to handle. There's nothing good about you anyway so let's end this.'
'I thought you were a little cute and wanted to take care of you. But what's this? You can't let me use your hole? Fucking homo, you have no single use. Get out!'
'I just wanted to get a taste of you but to think you'd react like this. Shit! This pisses me off.'
'Plain old fags like you should just take a man's cock when he gives it to you. You're acting like a goddamn virgin. Tch.'
'No one's going to love you for real so just give them the only thing you have to offer. That ass of yours is the only thing you can please a man with.'
I clutched the pillow when tighter, curling my toes as my breath became itchy in fear and desperation. I needed to breathe. Take a deep breath in and let it out.
I did this three times and told myself,
"It's okay, no one can hurt me. No one can get to me."
Still, it was frightening. The thought of someone holding me down, leaving me no room to move, spreading my legs at their own convenience...