Chapter 60: You’re so confusing!
The thought of Fil introducing Jackson to her parents was truly a scary idea. Her relationship with Jackson was plain odd. It was built on revenge and sexual benefits. Although he would keep joking about wanting to be the legal "wife", they were nothing but jokes.
Jackson was the type to spew a bunch of nonsense. He could keep talking for an entire day, but wouldn’t make sense one bit. Therefore, she tried her best to divert her attention by talking about the party and her plans. He listened, like always. When they finished their meal, Fil quickly excused herself to the bathroom to wash up.
"I’m losing my mind, am I?" she murmured, staring at the mirror after showering. "He’s only here because he wants... that."
Fil slapped her cheeks, shaking her head to keep it straight. She only knew Jackson for over a week. She couldn’t afford to entertain ridiculous thoughts just because he liked her mom’s dishes. There were still many on her plates, and her relationship with Jackson was mostly sexual. Nothing more, nothing less. Maybe a little bit of friendship, but that was all!
"That’s right," she told herself, eyes burning in determination. "This is nothing but a relationship with benefits. Once everything is over — once we’re fed up and done — we’ll pretend that we don’t even know each other."
The only reason Jackson was lingering around her was because he found her predicament amusing. Although he didn’t say that, Fil already concluded in her mind. Having Jackson around might be flattering and ego-boosting, but she couldn’t afford to let that in her head.
That man... was too attractive and financially capable enough to get any woman he wanted. It would be too foolish for her to believe he would take her seriously. She couldn’t be that stupid anymore.
’Just let things stay as they were,’ she told herself. ’It’s nice to have him around, but I shouldn’t dream of more than that.’
Fil forced a smile, knowing her feelings were nothing, but an emotion formed in a confusing time. As long as she was aware of the boundaries and lines she shouldn’t cross, she and her heart would be safe. She stayed in the bathroom for a while, not bothering to wear anything but a robe, knowing he would just take it off.
That was what he came for, and it was better if they would just do it.
Sex would distract her, and it would satisfy him. It was a win-win situation. It might be degrading if she thought about it, but she already jumped in the rabbit hole.