Chapter 181: If I wanted you (3)
Rafael scooped up a handful of water with his right hand and poured it over his head to hopefully cleanse his thoughts. He was the one to ask Annalise to stay with him and now he sat in cold water while she had to be in deep sleep by now.
He was falling deeper and deeper into a rabbit hole each time he was near her.
Rafael placed his hands along the edge of the tub and rested his head back. This might have been the perfect time for a cigar or something to drink, but he didn’t want to use either one. He could only sit alone in his bathroom waiting for the high he was on to pass.
He had to be angry at himself once more for agreeing that when morning came he would forget about what happened with Annalise. It was impossible to not think about it again, but he could at least not mention it to her.
Rafael felt ashamed of himself because of how hard he was in the water. The cold water didn’t help much since Annalise was still on his mind. He sighed and wrapped his hand around his length under the freezing water and began to stroke it to relieve himself so he could go to bed.
He had never felt this low before in his life to be stroking himself while a maid filled his mind. After countless years of saying he would not be with any of his servants, one filled his mind now and he could not get rid of these thoughts about her.
Rafael closed his eyes and the moment he did so, Annalise appeared. Touching as she did not long ago. She had been right that if she wanted him, she could have him. He would allow her to do as she wanted with him as long as she stayed here with him in return.
"Shit," Rafael cursed.
His pace increased little by little to please himself as he remembered every second of what Annalise did not long ago. Her hand on his skin and their eyes never looking away.