Chapter 61: He must stay by my side
Elijah’s pov ;
With a gentle sigh, I reached over and clicked off the bedside lamp. The room was plunged into darkness, save for the soft moonlight that filtered through the curtains. I nestled myself closer to him, seeking solace in his warmth.
My head found its resting place on his pillow as I exhaled an exhausted deep breath. I closed my eyes and nuzzled deeper into his hair.
But I know even in my dreams, he would haunt me. His face, his voice, his words. The ache in my heart only grew stronger as I slept.
Why is this so difficult? Why can’t I just express how I feel?
I chastised myself for feeling so insecure about something as simple as this. After all, this wasn’t high school anymore; I was an adult who should be capable of handling rejection with grace and maturity. And yet here I was, lying awake and overthinking every little detail.
But then again, he hadn’t rejected me or avoided me. He simply said he was tired and wanted to sleep. So why was I making such a big deal out of it?
I took a deep breath and tried to calm my racing thoughts. Perhaps I was overreacting after all.
No, scratch that. I definitely was overreacting.
It’s not a big deal. We have plenty of time. There’s no need to rush.
But even as these thoughts ran through my mind, a small part of me remained unconvinced.