Chapter 190: Considering The Future
Mrs. Brown started speaking but Rory did not say anything. Although her face was blank, she could see that she wants to change how she is right now.
"I can see that you are suffering. It is obvious. And it is not wrong to feel that way. A lot went on and it is hard. But, you are not planning on locking yourself inside this room forever, do you?" She asked.
"I..." Rory did not know what to say. She’s been staying here in the hospital, and everyone wants her gone. She is not happy she is here either. But the pain... When it hurts, she doesn’t know what to do. What will she do when she has no one?
"You are closing yourself and surrounding yourself with darkness. I know, I might appear to be blaming you when you are in so much pain. But trust me when I say this, sugar... There are people around you who can help you. All you have to say is that you need help. If you keep on pushing everyone away, I get it. You are hurting and no one understands your pain. I know. That’s how I felt when my Laura disappeared too. But you see, a smart and lovely girl like you... Don’t you think you’ve touched at least the heart of one person who would do anything for you? For me it was my brother and for you..." She smiled.
"Today I insisted I meet you. But I came here almost every day this week. And every time, he was there... Sometimes with your baby, sometimes alone, leaning on the wall and staring at the floor thinking deeply... And his family. They are around too. They just want to give you space. Aurora," Mrs. Brown walked to Rory and held her hand.
"I might sound harsh, but I have lived longer than you. So, I know about certain things more than you do. I know life better. Hear me out, alright. It might be tough but..." she took in a deep breath,
Rory felt tired already as she looked at the sun at the horizon. Even thinking a bit had tired her so much. But something in her heart told her that Mrs. Brown was going to say something important. She did make her feel like she was somewhat special. She said she was courageous and smart. She liked to believe that.
"Your daughter... She is such a sweetheart. She is five months now, right? Your husband told me. Time will fly. One moment they are just so small and before you blink your eyes, they’ll stand in front of you with their graduation hat on. Oh, I know you are feeling terrible already. I don’t want to add to your burdens but, don’t you think she will need you as she grows up?" She asked.
Her face was so kind. And although Rory did not want to think, she thought about her daughter.
"I think the way I am now... She’d be better without me around. She’s safe with the others and..." she couldn’t speak more as a lump formed in her throat.
She was afraid to face her baby after everything. She was afraid of herself. What if she hurts her baby by being near her? She knew what she was doing to Liam by being the way she is. That little thing does not have to go through that.
Isn’t she safe now?