Chapter 188: Not Regretful
Maximus said nothing. He looked at Alexandra and rubbed the small of her back. She didn’t see any anger or disappointment, but only curiosity on his face. She could understand that he wants her to elaborate on why she did what she did.
"When we were fighting Morfan, some of Inanis’ darkness mingled with your soul. You were already filled with thoughts of vengeance and it was easy for Inanis to..." she let out a sigh. "Back then, I contained your darkness inside a spell so that no more of your soul could get corrupted, but..."
"Oh?" he raised his brows. And his face twitched a bit as he was ashamed of himself. "I see..."
His hold on her waist tightened and he pulled her closer to him.
"It was I who invited Inanis to..." he let out a long sigh.
"The spell was not able to contain Inanis and... You know Hashomer can split anything, right? And I figured that the only way to separate your soul from the darkness is by using my..." she pressed her lips and looked at the distance. Her hands trembled thinking the moment her sword entered his chest. "You wanted to make everyone see me as their savior, and I..."
Maximus kissed her temple, pulling her closer to him. She closed her eyes and leaned on him. He could see that she is distressed and he could only assure her by holding her closer.
He was operating exclusively with the ambition of changing the past and getting back at Arioch. He didn’t care about his health and he could now understand how wrong he was. By not caring about himself, he has hurt her so much. He pushed her to go to the drastic extent of using her sword against him.
He imagined himself in her place. He is in no way half as powerful as her. But if there comes a situation that for her survival or her wellbeing, he should hurt her... He will do it. He will absolutely do it if it would save her. But yeah, it would hurt him as much as she would be hurt.
"You didn’t want to do it?" he asked. "Did I hurt you by pushing you?"
Thinking back, he regretted letting Inanis rule his soul, but he didn’t regret how she showed herself to the others. History is changed and she will always be remembered as the good one in all her many lives. That is what he wanted.
But it appears that she doesn’t want the same as him. And she is sad which is unacceptable.