Chapter 80: The Bloom Of Doom
Standing at the place where everything went wrong, her memories from her past life returned.
As she closed her eyes, she saw the blooming tree in front of her. And there it was... a bright orb purer than the summer sunbeam lighting up the noon sky, leaving the tree and coming to her.
Just where the bright orb left, she saw tears of red dripping out. And it was then she realized something.
Rather than returning to the creator to have eternal rest or to have the next life as he pleases, Tubby’s soul is searching for her even when he left his body.
She wanted to give him a choice when she left first. She wanted to give him a choice to have a new beginning and to have a choice if he wants to have the next life or enter the eternal rest.
That was why she left early, because she always has that choice and she knew it; she has the choice to start and end her life whenever and however she wants to. Ending her life and beginning another is nothing for her. It’s as simple as changing her clothes. Like one would change their clothes if they felt like it, she can change her life if she pleases. She can choose the time period she born again but she cannot live the same life twice.
After facing the betrayal from Luke, she wanted to leave the life where she made a lot of stupid decisions by following her blinded love-ridden heart. She was so ashamed of herself and was bereaved that she failed to accept Tubby’s counsel, that she lacked the courage to face him. That’s why she failed to update Tubby of her ability to choose life, but that ended up to be the reason that made Tubby come after her, thinking that she is dead and he won’t be able to see her again.
And that is why it affected her deeply and she changed her decision.
Till then the feelings she had for Tubby were rather ambiguous and leaned more towards being a family member than that of a lover. But seeing his soul reaching for her, her mind changed in an instant, as her heart became clear.
[I am not going to leave Tubby! He shall be my husband!]
But every time she reincarnated, she risked losing her memories. She had lost the memory that life and that was why she let herself to be manipulated by Luke. She remembered who she was only the day she took her life. And Tubby had followed her.
She wanted to assure that she would end up with Tubby in the next life and she wanted to leave an assurance for her to not forget her promise.