Chapter 182: I want to clear their misunderstandings
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Nathaira was tired. She can’t move her little finger. She just hoped to slip away from him and have some peace.
She doesn’t know why but all she could feel was regret for whatever she did to Eleanor. She must have felt like this too. From what she heard, even Cedric forced himself on her. Doesn’t that make him the same as Oliver?
No one was good. Maybe she should disappear from here just like Jessica and have a peaceful life. She was better off leaving this country. Nathaira doesn’t want to live a life like this.
She realized one thing... Cedric always took care of her like a big brother. And she was just used to it and never wanted to lose him. Over years, this turned into her obsession. She wanted Cedric to herself and him to take care of her. Now... just the thought of having sex with Cedric makes her feel like shit.
She has no self-respect for her when she chased Cedric. Oliver told her that Cedric was just acting. And she knew no matter what she do or what she did... Cedric wouldn’t love her the way he loved Eleanor.
Maybe in this life, She doesn’t deserve love. First, her father abandoned her, after that she made her family leave her. And now... she realized she never deserved love.
When she was fifteen years old, she saw her father cheating on her mother with some other woman. From then she always wanted someone in her life who could take care of her till the end. Now, she realized she was just like her father. She was chasing a man who was already committed to some other woman. And for the sake of her safety, he has to hurt her and break her. She was building her happiness at the expense of a women’s life. All the time, Nathaira wanted was not to become like her father. But she became like him. Maybe she shall apologize to him. Wait... not only him... but also Mason. He was a gem of a person. But she broke him, almost killed him. Tears slipped from her eyes as she thought about the things she did.
Just then, Oliver came inside with food. Seeing her cry, he felt like shit. Nathaira wiped her tears and covered herself with the duvet. She was still naked under the covers. And with Oliver around her, she was feeling scared. She was worried that out of blue he would come and fuck her whenever he wanted.
Her body was on the verge of collapsing at his constant intrusions. If she can, she wanted to clear all the misunderstandings and run away. Maybe she should return to her country or shall go to a different country.