Chapter 97: Seeing you cry hurts my heart but makes me glad
I always said my acting was flawless when it came to my survival. But do you know what makes it even flawless?
It’s when you mix emotions into it. Painful and sad emotions that could crush your heart with just a single thought. Emotions that could sympathize with the situation... Emotions that were more genuine than my intentions.
Why was I able to synchronize with these emotions?
It’s not because I was already feeling sad at how I wasn’t able to hate the Alphas who had tortured me in the novel. It wasn’t because I was feeling regretful that I never got to see the faces of my babies, but it was rather because... I could feel the sorrow and pain I, Jo-Pil, felt in that moment when I watched Jin-Yeok hold a bloody and lifeless Su-Yeon in his arms, wailing and weeping at the mistake he had made.
With his own hands, he had ripped out the heart of the one he held in his heart. With his own hands... He had erased her from the land of the living.
It was an unforgivable sin that he couldn’t recover from easily.
I watched this and wondered if he would’ve cried the same way if I were the one he had ripped apart.
Though I didn’t let him know the reason I was there in the first place was because Su-Yeon had called me to reach me for a lesson, I felt it was better not to bring her up.
She was already dead, and the sight of Jin-Yeok in despair broke my heart.
