Chapter 46: Please, don’t go back to how you were
I don't know if it was a good thing to tell Jin-Yeok that I killed a man to start with. But since he was someone who had killed more than a dozen people before reaching adulthood, I thought he would come to understand my fright.
His first kill wasn't easy, either.
In the first place, he would wonder how I, a weak frail Omega, was able to kill a man. He would wonder what led to such a situation that I got so desperate and took another life, to the point that I would do it again if I were to ever encounter that situation again.
I saw the shock in his eyes and closed mine. He didn't expect it, good. That means he, indeed, hadn't read my file to the end.
"I was on the run and in heat and I got tricked. The image of a man hovering over me haunts me till this day, the pain of getting hit is so clear that I can still somehow feel the hotness on my cheek and my ears ringing as if I never got over it." I shivered, clutching my arms as I recalled the incident. "I couldn't stay still and I hit him with the vase. I didn't stop there even if I finally got him off me. I was vengeful, angry, and scared, so I kept hitting him till I was sure he wouldn't move anymore. So, that's how I ended up killing him."
I looked up at him.
"Master, I dirtied my hands but I was able to keep my body safe. But even then, the experience still haunts me and that is why I get scared each time I think about fulfilling my duties." I said. "Even though I put my mind to it, my body acts out on its own. I told you I was telling you all this so you would sympathize with me and it was the truth. So, can you please give me time to adjust if I am to fulfill my duties with you? I will not run from it but please, do not force me into it."
"Was that what you asked the other two?" He asked and I nodded.
"That and I wished to not be hit since it hurts a lot." I said.
Okay, so that was bold of me and I had managed to make all my demands. That show of me asking him to give me time to adjust was just to make him pity me.
In the first place, he never had any interest in having sex with Jo-Pil and was just doing it to get an heir, so if I used this card, I was sure he wouldn't think more about it and give me time.