Chapter 398: Intense feelings are exhausting, no matter what kind
Aah...truly, having a friend is a good thing!
As expected of my dearest old friend, she knew exactly what I was getting at. I would have come to allow negotiation in the first place, but it wouldn’t be too credible if it came from me, right?
Since it was the other party who ’requested’ a negotiation, I could proceed without losing any bargaining position.
Honestly, it was tiring, getting angry. I was channeling both my and Valmeier’s disappointment, and it exhausted my mental capacity to process this anger, this sorrow I had suppressed ever since I heard about her from D’Ara. Of course, I knew that it was also a part of what fate had drawn for us, but...that didn’t mean I could just forgive her for what she did to grandmother.
When D’ara told me about Tsalinade back then, I did not immediately connect it. But afterward, I recalled a memory I had of Grandma, how she would tell me about ’that one pitiful daughter’ she had. I didn’t know who she was talking about because her children back on Earth were all males, but...now I understood.
And I understood why she always had this saddened look on her face when she talked about that ’daughter’.
And to think that this woman, whom my grandmother had thought as her own daughter, whom she had asked for nothing but the safety of her other daughter, betrayed her in the end. Betrayed the whole druid race. Betrayed Mother, who had given her a blessing...
Sure, as fate stated it, perhaps Valmeier’s mother would still lost. Perhaps the kingdom was indeed meant to fall. Perhaps she wouldn’t be able to do anything. But even if she failed, if only she tried just a little bit...if only she took our mother and tried to protect her even just a little bit...
Grandma’s husband wouldn’t curse her. And I wouldn’t even have anything to forgive her about.
So, no--despite I knew it might be the course of fate, I would not forgive her easily.
But this feeling...this hatred and anger was so, so heavy and tiring. Not even when I constantly hated myself for stealing Valemeir’s fate did I feel this exhausted.