Chapter 348: It’s easier once you accept that you’re not special
Kids...in real life, spirit and passion are not enough for success.
"It’s so hard..."
I almost cry. I really almost cried. We didn’t stop trying except to have lunch, which Angwi brought to the cliff. We even skipped teatime and snack time! But to the end, I still drifted away after a while, even though I tried hard to concentrate and always think of the ground beneath my sole, about Jade, about Zia, about Natha...
Ugh. Actually, I always started to drift off when I thought about Natha, because I always thinking of going over to the Lord Castle. Should I stop thinking about him, then? But...my mind always drifted to him automatically.
Haa...was this because I missed him?
Damnit! Now it just made me even sadder!
[Don’t be sad, Master! Master can do it!] my cheek was poked and nuzzled by a fluffy head, and I pulled Jade for a hug as I lay on the couch, lamenting my incompetence.
"Jade is right," Amarein patted my head. "It’s just your first day, Valen. Do you think young druids master the elemental mana on their first try? It took them months and years."
"Mm..." I let out a long sigh. Of course, I wasn’t vain enough to expect I would suddenly master everything automatically just because I had a teacher now. But it was just...so frustrating not being able to feel any improvement.
Well...there was one improvement, I think; I was no longer spreading my consciousness all over the place.
But it didn’t improve my ability to stay rooted, so I was still disappointed. After all, wasn’t the biggest problem with this to prevent me from drifting away? Also...