Chapter 189: And then there was me
How...could he say that so calmly? nonchalantly?
I stared at the green eyes that looked like a serene pond. There was no ripple, there was no shift. It felt scary and sad at the same time.
"What..."
I tried to open my mouth to say something, but it felt like my throat got blocked by a lump of hot coal. As I just stared at him in baffle, he tilted his head and suddenly reached out to pat my head.
Huh? I blinked and raised my brow in confusion. "You looked distressed. Father used to do this to the kids in the church."
Uhh...I had no idea what to think about this, but his unexpected move made me burst out a laugh. I let out a sigh after, and looked at him with a wry smile. He still had an expressionless face, but I could tell his action was genuine. Perhaps this was what made the soldiers in his unit feel good about him; he just seemed like a clueless, naive child who got used by the kingdom unfairly.
"Thank you," I said, and he retreated his hand after seeing I was no longer frowning. "But...what exactly is this...becoming one?"
I waited for his reply with an increasing heartbeat. There was a fear in the back of my mind that Valmeier was so calm because perhaps...’he’ would be the one who ’came out’ of this merging.
With the same unchanging tone and straightforward gaze, he replied without a fuss. "It means you’ll absorb me."
For a while, we could hear the sound of dew dripping from the leaves. That was how quiet we became. Well, me anyway, since Valmeier truly made no sound except when he was talking, unlike me who had a plethora of unsightly gasping sounds.
"Ab-absorb...you?"