Chapter 204
- HAZEL -
“We can’t see each other anymore, at least, not as much.” I say, standing before him in his school office. The door is wide open for obvious reasons. I have to be very cautious especially when I stay at his place, that alone is the riskiest thing yet but I will not discard the reason I came there in the first place.
For one, I have not had any stress related conversations with Asami. That alone makes me feel at ease but only a little bit. I have a new thing to keep be perturbed. I’m still figuring out the right moment to reveal us to Kate. It’s high time. Part of me is phased by the fact that even though Asami hasn’t been in contact with me, she might try to approach Kate and I need to act fast.
“I don’t see a reason why not.” Killian responds, staring at me in the comfort of his seat. He seems relaxed and unbothered and if we weren’t outside, I would’ve considered smacking him. Mainly because I know he wouldn’t hit me back.
“Killian, this is serious.” I breath, truly concerned.
“How serious?” He asks, assuming a more serious and confident pose. I can tell that was a rhetorical question. I swallow. For so long, I’ve always wanted him to choose me. Now he is. He wants us to be out completely and I’m the only one holding him back.
I love that he chose me, but I can’t not say how saddened I am with Kate still in the picture. I’m not saying I want her ruled out completely because of me, I’m just saying that I can’t tell if he’s putting on this act because I’m here. After all, I saw how affectionately he hugged her when she arrived.
It would be nice for him to let me see that side of him in his responses. He seems overly eager to inform her that it scares me. Would he do the same if another woman was involved in his life? Another woman who’s not me.
I don’t even know if Killian and I are exclusive considering that he’s engaged. Ugh. If I think about this too much, I’ll get a migraine, I thought I was past this already!