Chapter 201
- KATE -
I can’t wrap my head around it but something fishy is going on around me and I don’t know what. I don’t know if I’m the one overthinking what I shouldn’t.
What shouldn’t even be in the first place. This is Killian’s fault. If he isn’t acting in some kind of way, I wouldn’t have anything to worry about in the first place because I wouldn’t need to.
I let out a sigh, unloading my first box into my room. I will only be here for a few weeks so I won’t do much unpacking but I’ll be sure not to have all my things stuck in a place I’d have to drag out and unzip over and over again when I want to grab something out.
I let out another hefty sigh as my hand grabs a hold of a thick, long, brown envelope. It’s my marriage contract. I don’t want to have to think about it but it’s all I can think about these days. Or more like today.
I’m trying not to convince myself that he’s seeing someone but it’s not working. He has to be. The moment Hazel and I came back from our day out, late at night, I couldn’t stand being next to him and wanted to leave.
Get this, he did not ask me to stay. He didn’t even try to convince me to change my mind. Killian left me to make my decision. While I should be happy with having my free will and choices in this relationship, sometimes, I wish he could just be emotionally mature to understand that what I needed was not him being ‘understanding’ and ‘respecting’ my decision but locking me up in a room and forcing me to stay the night because it’ll show that he actually cares about me.
Doesn’t he care about my safety? I AM HIS BETROTHED FOR GOODNESS’ SAKE!
I mumble a groan. The more I think about it, the angrier I get. If I let myself dwell on this for far too long, I fear that I’ll lose myself. I fear that I’ll lose him and I’m not someone to be scared of something like that normally but I need him.