Chapter 132 The morning after
I was afraid that if I did, she would uncover my mask, and everything would turn cold. I couldn’t resist removing her mask while she was in a deep sleep. As I gazed at her peaceful face, a mix of emotions welled up inside me.
’Should I seek revenge on her? Or rather, did I really want to seek revenge on her?’
Since the day I met her, a strange thought had taken root in my mind: to possess her! In a way, I had indeed possessed her now. In fact, if I wanted, I could consume her entirely. But what then?
If I wanted to retaliate, I could have done so since the day she opened up her social circle. I could have easily shared those artistic photos of her, those portraits, and she would have been done for. And any one of those intimate videos of us could destroy her.
But I didn’t. Instead, I carefully protected them. All of this stemmed from that unrealistic and evil thought deep within me.
I must admit I have all the flaws typical of a man, but I can’t bring myself to let go. She was now in my arms, holding me tightly. Would you willingly give up such a beauty to someone else? I couldn’t bear the idea. Just the thought of her being with someone else in the future made me feel uneasy and frustrated. But why should I have her?
Just because I was well-endowed and charming? Because I understood women’s hearts? None of that!
What I said to her before was not only directed at her but also at myself. It was a promise and a warning to myself. This woman was not as despicable as I had thought; in fact, she was quite pitiful. It was easy to hurt her, but saving her is difficult.
If I couldn’t do what I promised, it was better to leave her early. You can be shameless as a person, but you shouldn’t abandon your principles, right? Yes, one must have principles in life.
Whether it was Kristina, Mary, Lily, or even Jessica, I wanted them all. The premise was, were you qualified? Did you have the ability? Deep down, I knew I currently lacked the ability.
Not having it now, I resolved to grow into a towering tree, earning respect and followers. I had a realization and felt enlightened.
While achieving this goal might be challenging, without aspirations, one would just be stagnant.