Chapter 306 - 6.66 What Was Real?
Cyrus’ jaws clenched. He shut his eyes and forced out. "...You, holding a gun and killing so many people. Old and young, men and women. They were asking you for mercy but you... burned them all down. You just stayed there and watched until their cries subsided, until their bodies reduced to ash..." He let out a trembling exhale. "...until nothing remained."
Lu Yizhou’s sigh puffed out in the form of billowing mists that curled to the sky. His worst, then.
Of course, with Cyrus’ position as the gatekeeper of Heaven, he would definitely delve head-on toward the ugliest part of human’s heart. That wasn’t surprising at all. Lu Yizhou stared up at the dark, starless sky. He had been inside the simulator for so long... long enough that the hellish scene from that time had become blurred in his memory.
He used to feel nothing but stark hollowness everytime it haunted him, like a festering wound that devoured him inch by inch until he became nothing but a large, simple void. Now... the hollowness was still there but when he tried to revisit it, his lover’s face would pop up in his mind. Their voice, their smile, their warmth, their tears... they persistently cling to him, stubbornly filling the empty part of him with sunshine and rose.
A light so fierce that it chased the darkness away — his endearing lover.
The corner of his lips curled up without him realizing. Despite the cold weather, Lu Yizhou’s heart stayed warm as if he had a mini torch stuck between his ribs. And this time, there was nothing but acceptance when he thought about his past.
He couldn’t erase his sins, and he wasn’t such a hypocrite to lie that he regretted them either. If life gave him a second chance, he would still take the same path as he had.
All those yesterdays, no matter how bleak they were, made up him. Lu Yizhou. The Lu Yizhou that his lover had come to love with all their being.
"I apologize for showing you such an unsightly memory," was what he said in the end.