Ch. 216 - Why Happiness is Like Walking on Thin Ice
Liu Qingqing stared at the two light boat tickets in her hand, but her heart felt incredibly heavy.
These were not traditional boat tickets. These were two hand-drawn boat tickets, the lines a little crooked.
This was Lu Xing's gift to her.
She thought, Lu Xing must have really wanted to give her real boat tickets, but boat tickets required real-name registration.
Ever since Lu Xing had moved into 301, she had been extremely careful about putting away her various documents.
Liu Qingqing believed that Lu Xing wouldn't do something like rummaging through her things, so he had used this form to replace it.
"Although I drew it, it's really valid."
Lu Xing buried his head in the pillow, his voice muffled as it came out.
"I don't know where you want to travel, nor do I know what kind of scenery you like, so I gave you a simulated boat ticket."
"As long as you find a place you like, we'll go during the summer vacation."
This was not a "big pie." This was his payment for eating, drinking, using, and living at the senior sister's place.
Lu Xing didn't need a world-shattering, heart-wrenching love.
Among the thousands of lights, if someone lit a lamp and waited for him to come home, a long and steady flow, that would be very good.
In a relationship, if only one side is giving, then it's like walking on a tightrope, teetering on the verge of collapse.
The senior sister was very good to him, and he was also willing to be good to her.
After a long time without hearing a response, Lu Xing looked up with confusion and met the senior sister's teary eyes. He abruptly sat up.
"What are you crying about?"
The senior sister wiped her eyes and said between sobs.
"I thought you didn't like me."
During this period, she had put all her enthusiasm into Lu Xing, but he was always so indifferent.
Throwing a stone into the water, you can at least hear a sound. But being good to Lu Xing, he seemed not to care at all.
But now.
Liu Qingqing gripped the two boat tickets in her hand. She finally understood that Lu Xing knew, he just wasn't willing to say it.
In university final exams...
There is no difference between a 0 and a 59.
And with Lu Xing...
There was also no difference in his favorability from 0 to 59. He had the same response.
Only when the favorability exceeded 60 would he have a different response.
Liu Qingqing understood that the efforts she had made during this period, accumulated bit by bit, had finally exceeded the critical point of 60.
This boat ticket was Lu Xing's response to her.
So Lu Xing wasn't blind.
Liu Qingqing lowered her head, tears falling down with a plop, plop. She was so happy, but she was also so scared.
After a moment of thought.
Liu Qingqing returned to the master bedroom, took an exquisite gift box, stuffed it into Lu Xing's arms, and said softly with her head lowered.
"This is for you."
Hmm?
Lu Xing looked at the gift box in his arms with surprise.
There's a return gift?
Lu Xing untied the bow and took out an exquisite hourglass from inside.
His slender fingers turned the hourglass in his hand over and over. Lu Xing looked up at the senior sister with great interest.
"What's the meaning of this?"
"It's..."
The senior sister said weakly.
"It takes ten minutes for this hourglass to run out. If we argue in the future, can our anger not last longer than this?"
Lu Xing's hand, which was playing with the hourglass, paused for a moment. He looked up at the senior sister and asked.
"Where would we argue?"
The senior sister said "I, I, I" for a long time but couldn't say anything. Lu Xing smiled and didn't tease her anymore, just said.
"As long as it's not a matter of principle, of course."
...
That night, Liu Qingqing was completely sleepless.
She paced back and forth on the balcony of the master bedroom, her mind constantly thinking about what Lu Xing had said.
A matter of principle, a matter of principle.
'Is a name a matter of principle?'
Liu Qingqing said to herself.
And when she asked this question, she already had the answer in her heart.
Liu Qingqing's heart was restless. She raised her arm and bit it, her eyes filled with a thick sense of unease.
She didn't dare.
She really didn't dare.
So happy.
Now it's so happy.
She was very happy every day. As long as she passed the internship period, she would be Lu Xing's girlfriend.
But as Liu Qingqing was sinking in happiness, another voice was constantly reminding her in the bottom of her heart.
Under this happiness, there was always a bomb about to explode.
"What was I thinking at that time!"
Liu Qingqing regretted it immensely. She shouldn't have hidden her real name on a whim.
What to do now, what to do!
Liu Qingqing increased her strength, and a deep tooth mark instantly appeared on her arm, turning red.
She didn't know what Lu Xing's reaction would be after she told him this.
She didn't dare.
It's too happy now. She didn't dare to poke this happy illusion.
During this period, she had even consulted if she could change her name.
But no.
Liu Qingqing changed to another spot and continued to bite down without mercy. The pain reduced her guilt a little.
Ever since Lu Xing had asked her if the scar on her hand hurt, she had stopped doing that.
And she was so happy now. Lu Xing was her soothing agent. Her mood was more relaxed than ever before.
But now.
A thick sense of unease came back again. Liu Qingqing deeply realized that she had never recovered.
Biting herself when she was anxious would recover in one night.
Lu Xing would not find out.
Liu Qingqing increased her strength. Her expressionless face shed tears one by one.
What to do? So uncomfortable. What should she do?
It's so happy now.
She didn't dare to think about what Lu Xing's reaction would be after she told him this. Would he not care and just let it pass, or would he directly flip out?
A 50% chance.
Even if there is a half chance to get happiness, there is also a half chance to fall into the abyss completely.
Liu Qingqing didn't dare to gamble.
Even though she knew the current happiness was just a lie, her feelings were real. She was really happy.
If she said the truth, and Lu Xing's reaction was anger...
She would really be in great pain.
On the illusion of happiness, she walked carefully, as if on thin ice.
She wanted Lu Xing to love her a little more, a little more.
That way, perhaps Lu Xing would be a little less angry after knowing her name.
In less than a while, her arm was a mess.
Beep—
A message notification sounded.
Liu Qingqing quickly picked up her phone. This was the message notification she had set for Lu Xing.
【Lu Xing】: Boss, how's the progress?
She had agreed with Lu Xing back then that when she was pursuing someone, she would always ask him if she encountered any problems.
And Lu Xing was not the kind of person who took money and didn't work. When he had time, he would ask a couple of questions.
A wall apart.
She was in the master bedroom, and Lu Xing was in the guest bedroom.
She had a thousand words to say, but she didn't dare to say them.
【Liu Qingqing】: Not good. There's a problem between us. I lied to him, and he found out.
【Lu Xing】: Is it a matter of principle?
A matter of principle, another matter of principle!
Liu Qingqing's whole body was numb with discomfort, her chest so tight it was sour.
...
Guest bedroom.
"Where is she?"
Lu Xing stared at the chat interface with confusion.
He was just about to give his old client some good emotional counseling, but she had stopped replying halfway through.
There are two kinds of people Lu Xing hated most in his life.
One is the kind who only says half a sentence.
The other is—
After waiting for a while, Lu Xing was sure that the other party was not replying, so he sent a message.
【Lu Xing】: Boss, if you have anything, just let me know. Goodnight.
Message sent successfully!
Lu Xing softened onto the bed comfortably, reached out his hand to fumble on the headboard, and took down an hourglass.
"So good."
Lu Xing stared at the sand trickling down bit by bit.
Life and death are determined by fate. There are too few things he can control. These small, certain happinesses in life are the proof of his existence.
After looking for a few minutes, Lu Xing came back to his senses.
He had to go to school tomorrow to fill out some forms. He still had to go to school.
There were too many things to be busy with. No time to look at these things.
"Work!"
Lu Xing properly placed the hourglass back on the headboard and completely threw himself into the ocean of learning.
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